I can't believe it, in just a couple of hours, it'll be the last day of 2007.

Since Benjamin wasn't around today, Steph & I helped Philip with the scores for MVQ, & when I saw Ben online just now I was like, Hiiii Ben you know, I had such a vun-derful time taking over your job.

Both Isa & I went over to Tabbi's place for dinner today, many thanks to her parents I'm now hooked on Heroes, can't wait for Volume 3 to be out!

I honestly think that Sylar, is, sizzlin', hotttt (It's such a pity he had to be the bad guy).

Both Annabella & I are very, very, upset.

But that aside, I think Joel & Benett are the cutest brothers, ever.
Watching them play was so entertaining, I really couldn't do anything but smile (:
Halfway through I suddenly remembered the other time when I saw them sleeping side by side in JG camp & I was like, "awwww" (:

"Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drough. Useless, & disappointing."

Don't kill me just yet.

Dinner @ Isa's

Hello Flippy (:




When I am in the mood to be stupid.


"Hi Philip, hi Sammmm!"


Stephanie Loh Si En (:


Hahah Sam, very funny.

Christmas carolling

& this smile's, for you.


Le' cousin!


With Ryan, Ben & cousin (:


Hahah Glen!


Warner :D


Wenkai (:


Joel 3 (:

Annual party was a blastttt, can't believe it but I actually managed to get to Joel Yong's place allll by myself (I got lost last year).
Caught A Cinderella's Story & I had so much fun playing Insaniquarium & listening to Alaster talk to himself while the rest were watching 28 Days Later downstairs, I would've stayed for the night but Felicia had something on early today so blahhhh.

I feel like playing Insaniquarium again!

I wish I could find you just like how you found me

Too many things remind me of that silly little smile you had.
It's funny but sometimes I still get the same old feeling when I feel you near, I still smile when I think about the happy times we've shared, & I hate to say this but there's something in you that makes it really hard for me to stay, even harder to run out.

You know me well enough to know that I never give up without putting up a fight.
I myself thought that I've changed & I'd never go back, but apparently time proved me wrong.

There were too many misunderstandings left behind & I want to clear my name, there's alot to say, & I have to speak up but I'd only do so if you let me.
I know there are alot of things for you to sort out, for you to think through.
You've all the time in the world but I don't.
I've done all that I can & I've already stepped out -- I'm waiting for you to make the next.

Perhaps it's just that something I can't leave behind, but I found a reason.

You.

You are why.

Hi Santa, is he my Christmas present?

Yesterday really didn't feel like it was Christmas to me.
But anyway, thank you all for the Merry Christmas wishes & the sweet little gifts, I really appreciate it (:

Friendster is finally working, Chia Wai must've taught it a lesson yesterday night, that's why it decided to be nice to me today (hahah).

Managed to catch Enchanted today with korkor, I think he was being extra nice to me by offering to come all the way to the North & to pay for the movie tickets just because he pissed me off on Monday.

Anyway, Enchanted is such a happy little show, it made me feel all warm & fuzzy inside (:
I'm hooked on Ever Ever After, the song is currently stuck in my head & it won't go away.

I decided to do some shopping of my own after Korkor left for dinner with his parents, & I was so drop dead happy when I stumbled upon the Little Miss Whoops tee that I wanted, I was just about to give up looking for the tee because I couldn't find it anywhere over the Blogshops.

When I got home, I told Korkor that I managed to get the shirt, &...

• Stacy /} I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes, says:
but i think it's gonna be darn stupid if i wear the tee out & then i walk into a wall or something
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... lollipers(: says:
haha, then it will be more classic then meimei banging into the sensor(:

He just had to -.-

I doubt I'd wear that shirt if I'm going out with Korkor, otherwise if I really do trip & fall or something he's going to make me his personal joke.

On a rather irrelevant note, Korkor is leaving for Vietnam in 12 hours' time & he just started packing, he's going as a millionaire anyway (hahah), I hope he remembers my Man. Utd jersey if he finds it...

What a bummer, this is already my last week of my holidays.
Sometimes I can't bring myself to believe how time flies.

2008 would be a brand new year, a brand new beginning.
I really don't know what lies ahead or what setbacks I'll face, but all I know is that:

My God, is bigger.

Yesterday night I was looking through my stuff, mostly the cards that the many people have given to me over the years, & I stumbled upon one particular card written by someone last Christmas, this someone was someone whom I had been really close to, so close that I gave him a part of my heart.

The card read:
"Hey Stacy, glad to know you're back on track with everything. We all say Christmas is a time of thanksgiving right? So I want to say thanks for being a great friend through the few years I've known you. When you go back to school hope you don't go haywire! By the way, I think you're quite lively, haha... And... STOP TOUCHING MY HAIR!!"

I smiled at the, stop touching my hair, part.

It brought back quite alot of memories, it's funny because when I first got to know him I hated him right to the very core because he said something wrong, but then with time my impression of him changed & we became rather good friends, I still remember vividly how I'd take every chance I could to mess up his hair, then in turn he'd chase me all over the place just to get back at me.

We simply followed our hearts & I believe the rest is history.

Things, of course, were nowhere near this screwed at that point of time, & honestly if I knew things would become like this I wouldn't let myself fall deeper.

There is alot that I want to say, but then I don't know where to begin.

That aside, on a lighter note, I managed to finish baking & packing the cookies yesterday night (though I only finished at like, 3 am)
I was so tired after all of the packing, I think I fell asleep once my head hit the pillow.

I really wonder what is it with me & heels, the first time was during D&D when my heel got stuck in the drain, the second time the strap snapped, & today my heel totally gave way when I was jumping around in Powerhouse, I need to go shopping for new heels like, asap.

Dinner at Isa's was grrrreat, I had so much fun being camwhores with Steph, playing the "jumping" game (apparently the craze is still on even after camp), looking at Sam then bursting out into laughter, munching on Hershey's with Philip, & pictures would be uploaded soon once I get them from my dearest Stephanie Loh Si En.

I can't believe it this is like the last week of my holidays, time flew like a dove & I really have no idea where all my homework is, they're probably in a quiet, dark corner of my closet rotting away.

YAY ANNUAL PARTY AT JOEL YONG'S PLACE THIS FRIDAY YAY YAY YAY YAYYYYYY!

I really don't understand how some other girls (like Jasmine) can shop from day to night, I think I'd never be able to do that, my legs & back would kill me.

I pretty much shop like a guy, I only go shopping when I have to get something, & no I don't go into every other store just to "check out the stuff", I'd only walk in if something catches my eye, & I guess that's what makes it so easy for me to just drag Kieran or Evan out to go shopping with me, they never have to complain or go "hurry up", all they have to do is just to carry my bags (:

A couple of hours in the mall with korkor today was enough to kill my back, it got so bad that at one point I had to get korkor to carry my bag for me (hahah), I was so sick of walking up & down the mall but nonetheless it was still really nice to go shopping for someone you love/care about, you really don't get to do this everyday.

Christmas shopping was fruitful, otherwise.

I got (almost) everyone's stuff, & I'm done wrapping them up, tomorrow I've just got to rush out the cards & finish baking the cookies.

Oh & today, I walked straight into a sensor that was at the entrance of The Wallet Shop at Marina (you know the funny rectangular thing that has an alarm that would go off if you bring any unpaid merchandise past it)

The story goes, like this:
The younger sister was at The Wallet Shop together with her older brother & she was looking at some really neat wallets that costs a bomb (like 89.90, if you want to know what I mean), just as they were about to leave the store a pretty pink purse caught her eye & she was looking at it, obviously she wasn't paying attention to where she was walking because she suddenly banged into the sensor, the next thing she knew her older brother was laughing his ass off & asking if she's okay.

What a bummer, next time I won't be able to tease korkor about how he banged into a wall when he was 8, because knowing him he'll probably use this incident that happened today back on me.

It still, doesn't, feel like Christmas, to me.

Halfway through the movie I completely went unconcious on Tabbi's couch, slept all the way till 930 & I feel like an idiot right now because I know I won't be able to sleep tonight.

During this 4 days I ditched the whole wide world & gave myself completely to God, it felt so good to be able to worship Him with all of my heart & soul.
I know I'm in good hands & during the camp God took away one of my greatest fear, it's seriously a miracle in me & it's felt great going back into His arms, it really amazes me when I think about the many times I strayed away & the many times I've turned away & broke His heart, yet everytime I return He's always, always, there.

It's really funny because I can still remember the first day I was half dreading camp & now I don't want it to end.
Still it feels great to be home, or rather it's great to have the heater, at least there won't be anymore cold baths in the morning for quite some time.

Although the rain did sort of dampen my mood, the weather was near perfect for sleeping at night, but in the mornings it was nuts, I'll go I'm so cold I'm about to freeze, & Philip would be like, ahhhhh the weather is so cooling.

Yesterday night was the night, we had the whole plot laid out but our group's skit was a really impromptu one, we only had time for 2 rehearsals & then tadah, it's the real thing.
Kang (aka Aladdin, LOL) was hilllllarious, I thought I'd die laughing or something, especially at the part where Aladdin rescues Princess Jasmine from Team Rocket (LOL), the both of us were supposed to sing the chorus of Way Back Into Love, but Kang went totally off, & I had to try SO hard not to burst out laughing.

Hopi, with their Beauty & the (Persevering?) Beast clinched the top.
(When they were acting Korkor actually asked me if I felt like strangling "Belle" & I was like ARE YOU CRAZY)

Later into the night Tabbi, Lynn & I were outside star gazing, the 3 of us had such fun talking things that made no sense & giggling away, then out of nowhere the guys appeared & before we knew it the 3 of us were caught in the middle of the chaos, it seriously scared me but I guess I'm glad that it's all over.

Korkor forced (yes, forced) me back into the room at 3, but Yingyan, Isa, Steph, Tabbi & I bitched all the way past 4, untill I eventually resorted to sleeping so as to get somebody out of my head.

Unsurprisingly this morning I woke up feeling like I had a hangover, I downed a cup of Milo with 2 packets of Milo powder which helped & made me feel better, sugar always helped for me in situations like this, but it contribute nothing to my throat.
To state the obvious, I went on a sugar rush, for the whole ride back to church I was so hyped up I felt like I'd burst if I didn't get rid of all that energy.

Christmas is just around the corner, but say really it doesn't feel like that's the case to me.
Going to do some last minute shopping with Korkor tomorrow (later?), it's 3.03 in the morning & I still, don't feel sleepy at all.

& all I want for Christmas is,

Camp was grrrreat, 4 days flew by just like that, made new friends & of course, caught up with those that I haven't spoken to in a long time.

Though the first day was pretty screwed for me, things picked up & I can't deny the fact that I had a blast.
Both Kang & Steph were wonderful leaders & even though Acolapissa didn't make it to the top 3, it's alright because it's not like we never tried, we did all that we could & I'm sure that all of us had fun (:

Slacking at Tabbi's right now, together with Isa & Steph, they're watching some chick flick while I'm sitting infront of the computer.

I'd blog again when I get home, pictures would be updated once I get them from Kang/Edna/Felicia/Pris! :D

I, seriously think that I am nocturnal.

I stayed awake throughout Friday & I slept at 8 on the Saturday morning & eventually got up around 1, & yesterday night after I reached home I was so exhausted I totally collapsed on the bed & I woke up at 2 in the damned wee hours, after that I couldn't fall back asleep so I decided to watch The Champion on Youtube & I've been awake all the way untill now.

3 beautiful days, & I survived on only 8 pathetic hours of sleep.

Korkor is currently going nuts because I accidentally blurted out the fact that I haven't eaten anything at all since I got up yesterday at 2 /:

That aside, I was supposed to go poncho (& candy) shopping with Yaohui today, but rehearsal for the Christmas skit ended wayyyy too late, & he had to go back home for dinner so in the end I went candy shopping alone, hopefully it'll be enough to last us through 4 days.

Just finished packing my things, doesn't feel like camp's tomorrow.

WHERE'S THE YAYYYY-IT'S-JG-CAMP-TOMORROW FEELING WHEN I NEED IT.

!#$^$*%)$&@!? FLOP.

The group names, suck.
They all sound like screwed Pokemon/Digimon names.
Please tell me what the hell is Acolapissa, & I would honestly love to see the committee form cheers from a name like San Juan, it's seriously not like all of us could poof something out of thin air just like that.

I AM SO UPSET. PERIOD.

Say it if it's worth saving me

WHY, HAVE THE CAB FARES GONE UP AGAIN I AM SO UPSET AT THIS & THUS I HAVE DECIDED THAT I AM NOT GOING TO TAKE CABS ANYMORE.

JG Camp's just 2 days away, funny but I don't even feel excited this year.
I've just decided to start packing, but I'll probably end up rushing & throwing everything into the bag tomorrow night.

On a more irrelevant note, my fringe is getting so irritating.
I was THIS close to having my hair chopped off last week but I backed out at the very last minute because I realised that all the efforts to keep my hair long would go down the drain, moreover it'll be such a painful & agonizing process to wait for my hair to grow back.

I want to play Rock Fever.

Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere you're not coming back

Earlier today mummy & I were talking about M, who passed away when I was younger.

I've been so caught up with life that M was pushed to the back of my mind.
However tonight I found myself thinking about him, & life would be so different for both mummy & I if M was still around.
If there was a way I'd let him know that I still think about him, he was such a big part of me & when he left I broke apart.

Perhaps it's just a part of me that'll never change, so many years have gone by, but I realised that the wound, has never healed.

This pain is so real, it's so hard to bear at times.
Maybe at one point or another, all of us would have to learn to deal with this, this gaping hole that'll never close up.

Back home, missing mummy & the life back at the place that has becomed so familiar to me.

Apologies for going MIA for so long without a single update, Travis had his laptop with him but the connection was so screwed up, we couldn't even stay online for more than a minute.

That aside, more about the trip, 2 Thursdays back I woke up to the mahogany of someone's eyes & I GOT THE SHOCK OF MY LIFE, initially I thought it was Chester (Mummy's adorable Yorkie), but when I realised it was my favourite "egg-juggler" I was like, hello you, what an interesting way of yours to say hi, & he went hi pig, it's already 3 in the afternoon -.-

& oh yes, my mum, is nuts.
She's probably the only one in this whole world that'll stay up till 2 in the morning to cook liquid detergent over the fire.
Apparently she was ransacking through the kitchen cabinet 2 Saturdays back & she found this bottle of concentrated liquid detergent that is at least 4 years old (I can't believe my mum at times), all that detergent has already becomed this green, jelly-like stuff, & mummy proceeded to squeeze the entire content into a pot & cook it over the fire, saying something like melting the detergent, Travis, Mayleen & I just stood there & watch my mum like she's mad.

Interestingly, that bottle of detergent did melt back into it's original liquid state & mummy is now happily using it to wash her dishes.

Not forgetting the freak thunderstorm that hit the area, there was minor flooding & for 3 days I was half living under the blanket (that's only because mummy's closet has no room for me to hide in), & one fine day mummy went, let's go shopping & I was like ARE YOU CRAZY I'll die in this storm.
Travis & I both fell sick halfway during the trip, Mummy forbade us out at night & since it was near impossible to go out anyway, the both of us stayed in to watch CSI untill 5 for 4 straight days, accompanied with Mayleen & Alun.

It was so much fun catching up with some of the cousins I haven't spoken to in so long, all of us have changed so much over the years, seemed like yesterday when we were still young kids digging for earthworms & catching grasshoppers.

This is random, but imagine what would your mum do if you screamed the F word from the end of the house.

Mine would probably look at me with a raised eyebrow & go back to what she was doing, or maybe she'd shout the F word back (hahah).

Sometimes I really don't feel like mummy, is my mum.
She seems more like a girlfriend to me, a girlfriend that I could bare my soul to, when I'm with her I could just say anything I want, & the both of us could just go on talking about everything, anything, & yet nothing at all.

I'm so drained from the trip, I've been sleeping at 5, 6, 7 am every night, & waking up at only 4 in the afternoon, have no idea how I'm going to sleep tonight, youth camp musician practice tomorrow, oh my gosh my throat.