I can feel the flu bug literally attacking me.

I really don't want to fall sick, because my weekends are now jammed packed, & I'm serious about it when I say, Jammed Packed.
I wonder what's wrong with me, I always seem to fall sick at all the wrong times.

I feel like shit, this is so irritating ):

FIONA;FNWQ says:
i feel like crying leh . but i am gg out later . cnt cry .
- ★ Stacy. FKJ; Where love is more than just your name, says:
OMG NO YOU CANNOT CRY
FIONA;FNWQ says:
of cos i cnt
- ★ Stacy. FKJ; Where love is more than just your name, says:
you can only cry when i'm around because I'M the ONLY one that can make you stop crying,
FIONA;FNWQ says:
LOL . HAHAHA
- ★ Stacy. FKJ; Where love is more than just your name, says:
& that's by threatening to throw my shoe or something in your face.
FIONA;FNWQ says:
wht , dont threaten me .
- ★ Stacy. FKJ; Where love is more than just your name, says:
LOL
- ★ Stacy. FKJ; Where love is more than just your name, says:
hahah it's okay you can cry, you'll just end up looking like a goldfish when you go out HAHAH
Have I ever said just how much I love Fiona?

I think I'm feeling better now, at least I'm not like, hyperventilating or something.
But still, thanks to the person who had pressed the button in the lift to the 7th floor, my life, is, over.

SO, I actually got up for school.
I had originally intended to give Fiona a wake up holler, but when my alarm went off at 6.45, I realised that I forgot her number (hahah).

Mr Oon was explaining to us the turning effect of forces today during Physics, & he drew a see-saw on the whiteboard in an attempt to get the concept to our heads.
So he drew a really skinny stickman on the right side of the see-saw, & I'm sure that all of us know that stickmen are all supposed to look like sticks, however Mr Oon proceeded to draw this really huge & fat stickman on the left of the see-saw, saying something like "potential sumo wrestler in Singapore", & when he was done with it he asked us: "So class, can you tell me what will happen to the see-saw after this sumo wrestler sits on it?"

Somebody in the class said, "The see-saw will break."

Teehee!

Fiona & I both went through SO much just to get out asses out of school, & you won't believe it, because I can't even bring myself to believe it, but Chemistry finished in less than an hour, so everyone was released early.

!!!!!! Blah.

Yay I like Mr Oon.

Moment of a force (or torque) is the product of the force & the perpendicular distance from the line of action of the force to the pivot.

When an object is in equilibrium, the sum of clockwise moments about any point is equal to the sun of anti-clockwise moments about the same point.

Hahah I think I'm just plain weird because I don't think anyone else would bother to type all of that out.

OKAY THIS IS IT MY LIFE IS SO OVER STACY YOU !%$*?^#!?@ IDIOT YOU SHOULD JUST BANG YOUR HEAD AGAINST A TREE & DIE.

WHYYYY THE 7TH FLOOR OF ALL PLACES.

T.T

I am feeling very upset now because I can't find my Westlife Face to Face CD.

Le frère plus âgé & I have been going back in time, digging for the 90's music & I really like the old school songs (:

I can't believe it, it's The Holidays & I'm actually returning back to school tomorrow for extra lessons.
The thought of having to sit in class for 2 straight hours, going through Chemistry, absolutely, sucks.

& damn it I seriously need to go shopping for something decent to wear to this Saturday's D&D.

This is crazy, & it's an emergency. I really need to party.

(Hahah it rhymes)

Enjoyed ice cream on a cold rainy day, but felt all warm inside.
It was all wrong, & I wasn't supposed to, but I found myself wondering why I had willingly given up everything for you.

& a peck on my cheek had caught me off guard.

It's not getting to me, though.
Your actions could mean nothing at all, & I don't have to mean a thing to you.

Among all the mess, & all that we've shared, nothing has ever felt so, innocent.

"If you want to have fun, just give me a call, I'll take you out. But make sure you stay with me otherwise my friends are gonna get your ass drunk & the next morning you'll wake up butt-naked."

Note: get your ass drunk.

So funny, I never knew my ass could get, drunk!

Met le frère plus âgé for breakfast today, had such a hard time getting out of the damned bed.

Oh Children's Cell was nuts, Victoria still thinks that there's something going on between me & le frère plus âgé, which makes, no, sense, because how could I be in love with my older brother.
& when all the kids took out their bibles, Victoria took out a PDA.

...A FREAKING PDA!
& myyyy goodness she's only 11 this year!
Kids nowadays /:

My voice is so darn sexy now, all thanks to the junk I've been downing lately.
Lunch really didn't make things any better & now I'm seriously regretting it because my throat feels really uncomfortable.

Maybe the gloomy weather did dampen my mood by that little bit, but that's okay, it's not the first time anyway.

Benson Chew (the Blockhead) just sent his proof on entry for his O's into the washing machine!

Anyway, I was kind of reluctant to meet Fiona up today because my bed felt, so, comfortable.

It's back to Parklane again, feels like a million years since I've stepped into that place (actually the last time was just 2 weeks ago), today my heels half killed my feets, & as if that wasn't enough, for that few hours I had to try so hard to pretend that everything's okay, when all I felt like doing was just to curl up in a quiet little corner.

You weren't looking at me, but sensing, & seeing the pain in your eyes, it totally tore me apart.
I had wished,

That you would let me be there.

Say really, it's not like I've never tried to find ways to compromise, it takes 2 hands to clap & since you refused to cooperate, don't put the blame on me when things don't turn out your way.

Sure, I can put up with you & your rubbish when I'm feeling nice, but still, you should know that my level of tolerance is only, that much.

Today's the day, I pray that we'll make it through
Make it through the fall, make it through it all


Before I could even promise myself not to cry, the tears already came like a tap that refused to shut.

It sucks to be standing still & watching someone you've known for so long being forced to walk away.
I wished I was able to do something about it, because I really don't want them to go.
I can't imagine what's life without them, & sure, the fact that next year I get to walk into 4E4 & see the same familiar faces is comforting, but I know I'll have the feeling that something's missing because they're just not there.

Would you still remember all the times that we've shared for these 3 years?
Maybe the reason why it's so difficult for me to say goodbye is because I've become so used to having the both of you around, always talking nonsense & making a big fool out of yourselves.
It sucks to see the both of you go, but I promise I'll be down for you for whatever.

One last hug exchanged & I forced myself to say the word, "goodbye".

Arrived in school late (again), I think Mr James is sick of seeing my face every morning, but that's not the point, & as I was saying, I arrived in school late, but I made in just in time to hear this announcement made by Mdm Lim.

Mdm Lim: I know the exams are over & most of you have got nothing to do in class, so I encourage all of you to join this competition of making scarecrows.

...Scarecrows?!

Hahah what the hell.

Anyway, the class attendance today was pathetic, & I mean, Pathetic.
Meiqi & I ended up photowhoring during Chinese lesson, pictures would be uploaded soon because Photobucket is currently being a bitch.

I've been feeling so restless & I don't know why, maybe it's because of the fact that tomorrow would be my last day with some of the classmates that I've spent a year, some three straight years, with.
I don't want to dwell on this subject, because I know that life still goes on no matter what, but sometimes I really wished that I wasn't so weak & feebly when it comes to saying goodbye.

Make this ride as fast as I can
Tonight this road home feels a little longer
I hope you know that you were my best friend
Tonight I said goodbye, but I should've said more
Thanks for the best time of my life

Come home, now that you're gone
I finally realised that you were the best
Come home, I won't forget the times that we had
I'm wishing that you weren't a part of my past

Emptiness swallows this town
From now on I will be alone for good
Will you remember my name?
I'm hoping that I'll hear from you soon
Thank you for everything

Come home, now that you're gone
I finally realised that you were the best
Come home, I won't forget the times that we had
So please don't be a part of my past

For the past hour I've been playing this song over & over again, & I really don't want, to cry.

I wanna watch Lion King!

This song really tugged at my heartstrings.



I'll never let you go
So, never let me go
I will be your journey
& you will be, my road
Down the stormy path
Love will never, come to pass
It will be an anchor
Although the winds may blow

& through the depths of high & low
Wherever you will go, I'll follow
To the end, back again, you know

Won't let you fall, fall out of love
Cos together we'll be holding on
Cos, all we have is us
Won't let you go, go away again
Because life don't mean, nothing at all
If I don't have your love

I will dry your tears
Take away your fears
Let me be your shelter
Your heart is safe in here
So beautiful & pure
There's nothing I would not endure
Oh, love has got me blinded
I see it all so clear

& through the depths of high & low
Wherever you will go, I'll follow
To the end, back again, you know

Won't let you fall, fall out of love
Cos together we'll be holding on
Cos, all we have is us
Won't let you go, go away again
Because life don't mean, nothing at all
If I don't have your love

I'm down for you for whatever
Anything you're going through
What's mine is yours
Every little thing, I got you
Even when winds will change
Come smashing down & crashing on you

Won't let you fall, fall out of love
Cos together we'll be holding on
Cos, all we have is us
Won't let you go, go away again
Because life don't mean, nothing at all
If I don't have your love

Don't have your love, oh
Don't have your love, no

I'll never let you go, let you go
Let you fall, let you fall, fall out of love

Rumours have been spreading like wildfire, & believe me, when I first got word on what they were talking about, I flared up.

The first thought that came to my mind was:
"Are these people brainless?!"

I don't owe anybody an explaination, & even if I do, it won't be to you people.
I am not saying I've never ever gossiped about someone in my entire life, I just think that one shouldn't be judged purely by his/her actions & words.
I may not know what's really going on, but what I know is that no matter what I do, it has nothing to do with you & shut up, because I know that what I know, is true.
You people don't have to worry, I'll take full reponsibility for my actions & words.

But say, I'm feeling much better, I'm not going to let trivial stuff like this affect me.

Maybe people just like to talk about me. (Hahah)

These people can carry on being brainless if they want to -- it has nothing to do with me.

_l_

Hello to my new labret piercing! (:

To think that I had actually half freaked out just before I got pierced, but it really didn't hurt as bad as I thought it would be, I had originally expected myself to scream/cry or something, but all I did was just stare at the ceiling & think about random stuffs.
Remember when I got my tongue pierced I had said that I kept laughing when Fiona was pushing the needle through?
Hahah I think there's seriously something wrong with me, because this time round I actually managed to talk when Cherlynn was piercing my lip.

I'm thinking of getting Venombites piercing, but that'll have to wait untill this piercing heals, & say, if I really do go ahead with it, it's equivalent to sending myself to my own grave.

I can already imagine le frère plus âgé glowering at me.

Judgement day today, I know I could've done better if I tried harder, but I didn't give in my all, so I guess I've already expected results like these.

But at the very least I didn't make Mr Yip cry, & now I get to burn a hole in le frère plus âgé's pocket, teehee.

10 months & 22 days have passed in just a blink of an eye.
The year is already coming to an end, & I don't know why but deep inside I feel like I need you more than ever.

What would you do, if I were to fall, because of you?

STACY IS A VERY HAPPY GIRL.

Nov 2nd: Movie Marathon
Nov 26th: JG G.D
Dec 17th-20th: Youth Camp'07

I. CAN'T. WAIT. FOR. MY. HOLIDAYS.

More pictures.

"My meimei is a super, duper, photo, camwhore." says the older brother.


"Go away Stephanie Loh!"




Hello again Gary, I think you need another haircut. (No more nerdy specs, pffftt)


No prizes for guessing which feet belongs to me.






The many faces of Franlyn Seah (:


Hello Steph, I never knew you were camera shy.

I actually met Ruth for breakfast today, & I promise I half died on the MRT because I was So sleepy.

Went down to the P6 Cell today, I had so much fun, Benett definitely made everyone's day (:

Le' vainpot, aka. Gary, left early today so I had no one to bitch to ):

I simple ADORE bullying Sam, teehee!

Edmund was nowhere to be seen today /:

I went high on Milo Dinosaurrrrr!

& OH tomorrow's Doomsday, I am keeping my fingers crossed & I am going to have a nervous breakdown really soon, it's so funny because it's the first time I'm feeling like this & I seriously need to rant otherwise I think I'll burst soon.

Newsflash, the older brother just went mad.

My PM was: "I've an older brother, his name is Justus & he's a pig.

So upon that, the older brother went:

±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... lollipers(: says:
oink oink
Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... lollipers(: says:
sry ar, pigs cant talk, so i will only oink!
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... lollipers(: says:
oink oink!

... -.-

I've an older brother who's a pig & still thinks that he's Rosicky.

- ★ Stacy. FKJ; & if I keep staying strong, holding on, says:
your dear little sister will make you go wow with an A1 in chinese & she'll burn a big hole in your pocket.
±Яoѕicky.--\™ meh-ve [[ 10 ]]... lollipers(: says:
*shake head* no sister would have the heart to burn a big hole in her korkor pocket and make him starve bcoz he has no money to buy food in skool

What-the-nonsense, with that I replied:

★ Stacy. FKJ; & if I keep staying strong, holding on, says:
don't bullshit, you have the POSB card. you trying to kid me?

HAH, K.O!

Stacy: 1, Justus: 0.

This is such, a, random, post.

Sometimes I think I'm just nuts, or maybe I just love myself too much.

It's funny stepping into church on a Saturday afternoon, I haven't been to JG in such a long time.

I laid everything down, released all that I've been holding inside, & let perfect love fill me up.

I've been standing at the edge for far too long, trying to decide if I should believe & make the leap, or backing off & running back into the promises of the world.

I've been struggling, trying, & relying on my own abilities to cling on, but now I'm letting go.
Letting God.

Currently on the phone with Korkor.
Warren is talking nonsense.

For the past couple of days, I have:

• Met Korkor for lunch
• Drank Slurpee
• Spent what seemed like forever waiting for some irresponsible kid
• Complained to Korkor about the weather, the people, the place everything
• Gossiped (heehee)
• Made friends with the P6s! (:
• Been the "Buttergirl"
• Accidentally SPILLED butter over my shirt (HAHAH)
• Had Korkor nag at me to eat
• Had my hair smell all of smoke
• Cleaned up after the BBQ & actually had fun doing it
• Watched the guys jump into the pool in the middle of the night
• Watched the guys get chased out of the pool by the management
• Sat in the middle of the soccer court & argued with Gary
• Learnt the fact that Gary couldn't ride a bicycle to save his life (!!)
• Drew on Vincent's face!
• Slept for a pathetic 3 hours
• Had the fact that my exams were over dawned on me while I was brushing my teeth
• Ate pizza
• Done a somersault into the pool
• Gone down a slide that was out of bounds & under maintanance
• Watched Gary fall asleep
• Learnt & played Bridge
• Sang Love Today at the top of my lungs!
• Ultimately, had fun.

All tangled up (:


Lemuel, sitting around while the P6s were trying to detangle themselves.


Xbox frenzy...




While Marcus & the rest played soccer...


& the girls upstairs playing Stress.








Poor Vincent, but he *cough*deserved it*cough*.


Tadah (:








Hello to Gary & his nerdy specs (:

Apologies for the lack of pictures, we were all too busy to actually sit down for a proper snapshot.
If we weren't barbequeing, we'd be eating, otherwise playing games that makes no sense & talking nonsense.

It's funny but all of these has got me impatient, I can't wait for JG Camp!

I <3 LE' JAY GEE-IANS!

This past month have been absolutely nuts.
So much dreadful shit has happened, so much that it forced me to grow up.

We only seem to take steps in life through heartbreaks, & it's like we never learn to Learn.
When you lose something or someone, isn't it difficult to go through one night all alone, knowing the fact that things are not the same & that this somebody who mean So Much to you, isn't there anymore?

Sometimes you never even get the chance to really treasure, to really cherish.
Time just goes by like that & before you know it, it's gone.
You're left to deal with the Pain, & let it attack your heart over & over again, right at the core.

When someone breaks your heart, you learn something that you never knew about them, & you're forced to look at that person from another angle.
You open up your heart & let someone in, & the more they know about you, the more they know how to hurt you.
The closer you are to that person, the more it'll hurt.

Maybe we just have to go through everything in life.
From losing a loved one, to doing badly in school, to getting betrayed, & having all sorts of shit pierce through you.
I know everyone has their own good & bad times, I just wonder if it'll hit a point where nothing, Nothing, hurts you anymore.

Stacy is currently Wenkai's secretary! -.-

Things to do after the exams:

• Go nuts & have fun
• Redecorate room
• Make new layout
• Go shopping (teehee)
• KILL LEE! (:

I just want to get over the exams & be done with them, can't wait for my Wednesday to come!

My left arm is really sore now, it must be from all the wrestling with Lee just now.
Bah, it's a miracle that my arm is still intact.
Just you watch out, I will get my hands on you, pretty boy.

& I need to go shopping for new heels, mine nearly gave way when I was chasing Lee around, pffffftt.

WHORE _l_

If you think that you're going to bring me down, you can forget about it because that's not going to happen.
I was made by that pair of hands that equipped me with this something called perserverance.
Time is what we've got, so let's just wait & see who has the last laugh.

I am feeling like a pig now, Marche was fantastic, I had so much fun catching up with les amies, eating, & laughing over stupid things like how some people make perfect gay partners.

& oh Gary got this huge ice cream soft toy back for me from Hong Kong, & it was rather annoying having to drag the bulky thing around with me in Vivo but hahah, at least he remembered me while he was away! (:
The funny thing was that the plastic bag smelt of Nivea... That vainpot.

Tons of pictures taken, I don't know why but nowadays I seem to really love my pictures in greyscale or sepia toning.

Started photowhoring even before we left church, hah.


Say hello to Doctor Stacy (:


The emotional kid -.-


With my favourite girl! (:




I triedddd to smile, I swear!






Yay ice cream yayyyy.


Stupid pig didn't even tear away the price tag.


I thought the top looked very much like poop.


Isabella & Tabitha


Welcome to the Ladies Gents?


Isa (:


Philip Flippy, stoning away.


I really don't know what they hell they were doing, but hahah.


Look at Steph. Such an uncanny resemblance...
She reminded me of him.


Moo.


Hello Lester! (:


Hahah okay we THEY were eating Tabasco sauce. Crazy much.


Anabella, Tianyun, Flippy, Sam, Lester, & the rest of us couldn't be seen.


The root beer bottle that looked rather, evil.


See what I mean -.-


Hah don't drool.


Candid.


Flippy doesn't like me taking pictures when he's eating! /:


HAHAHAH don't we all just adore Stephanie.


Flippy, Sammy-Sam-Sam, Lester, Chris, & your Highness! (Hahah.)


Anna & Tianyun, hahah.


"You want kill me ah, kill lah, kill lah!"


Oh-kay we were trying to act like some maniacs but apparently we failed.


If you're wonder what Lester & Chris are doing...


They're playing the I-squash-your-finger-you-squash-mine game! (:

HAHAH this is the funny part.
We literally shouted their birthday song, I think everyone at Marche could hear us, hahah.


"Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to you,
Happy birthday to ISABELLA SIM & STEPHANIE LOH,
Happy birthday to you!"


The birthday girls (:

Then we went outside, & I promise the view was beautiful, but it was too dark for me to take a snapshot, even with the flash on.


Hahah I had SUCH a hard time climbing up the stupid cow, & I think we weren't supposed to climb on it but...


Who cares.


Isabella, Stacy, Tabitha, Stephanie
The girlfriends (:


We were supposed to take jumpshots, I really don't know how it ended up like this -.-


This was what I could do to capture the view.

I was sitting alone while the rest were talking away, & unknowingly, I had actually started singing:

"I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God, just one question
Why aren't you here with me, tonight"
So many things, but yet just One Thing was going through my mind.
Memories played like a film without sound & at that moment I had a sudden urge to tell you how much I love you, even though I know that you won't reciprocate my feelings.

Too many words left unspoken, too many things I haven't done, too many regrets left behind.

I miss you.

Left for home after satifying all of our cravings at the arcade, I feel so guilty for making Sam & Lester accompany me, but thank you gentlemen!

(HAH.)

Les amies! <3