@!#$%^)$^&%(#&*?&%#$@!!!!!!!!!!! ROARRRRRRRRRR!

IT IS NOT MY GODDAMNED FAULT!

Where the hell are you Fiona Neo Wen Qi,

I. SERIOUSLY. NEED. TO. SCREAM. &. KICK. SOMEBODY'S. ASS.

I WANT TO MURDER HOWARD NG FOR MAKING US WATCH ALONE.

The plot was lousy, the story was oh-so-totally-predictable, I think the only thing that makes it worth the 7 bucks was, the parts where the so called ghost came out.

(But the guys paid, anyway.)

But damn, the movie made me cry.
I mean, I thought I was going to die of heart attack or something.

& Howard Ng I am NEVERRRRR going to return you your jacket, roar.

AHHHHHHHH I AM GOING TO WATCH ALONE WITH FIONA GABBY & HOWARD & I PROMISE I AM HALF FREAKING OUT ALREADYYYYYYYYYYYY.

OH MY LALA IT'S THE 30TH OF JULY ALREADY.

Happy anniversary, dearest Fiona & Gabby :D

I really don't know how I'll survive with Fiona Neo :D

The 2 guys were totally out of sight, (NOT out of mind) today.

FIONA & I ACTUALLY ASKED THE GUYS OUT FOR DINNER & GUESS WHAT WAS THEIR REPLIES,

"Sorry, I'm not free today, you guys go ahead (:"

YES WITH A SICKLY SWEEEEEEET (: AT THE BACK.

Oh-kay I don't know why I'm getting so worked up.

Anyhooooo, Fiona & I were made to wander around Bugis on our own, but I promise I still had fun though.

Since the guys were not around today, it gave Fiona & I the benefit of making jokes about them, & oh my lala, it was so darn funnehhhhhh.

We were so near to our "permanent markings" but something happened & things didn't go as planned /:
I'm still feling abit uneasy, but ahhhh whatever, it's all over.

I. LOVE. FIONA. NEO. WENQI.

(Much much more than you do, Gabby.)

You know, you really don't have to worry about anything at all.
I could be the last thing that's going through your head, I don't mind.
I'll stay faithful & true, as long as you would, too.

I won't leave, untill the very day you tell me to, then I will turn & walk away.

Parklane again, today.
Met up with Fiona, Gabriel & Howard at Cineleisure, & haha thought I saw Bryan walking towards *Scape.

The lazy bums, insists on taking the MRT when Parklane is like, just a pathetic MRT stop away.

Gabby's excuse?
"Have to walk very long."

Well, that just because, you have absolutely no damned sense of direction, hahaha.

Ok nevermind, forget about that.

No Zhenhao & his stupid faces around today to make me & Fiona laugh /:
He said he wanted to save money, hahahaha.
While Gabby & Howard played pool, I was so bored, I think half the time I was singing to myself in my head.

Then we walked to HQ2, Fiona & I ended up entertaining ourselves there by digging up all the stuffs that we did in the past when we were still in Secondary 2 & saying stupid stuffs, & oh my lala, I laughed so hard, I think I have abs now.

I'll give you an example.

Fiona: Next time when people calls & asks us where we are, we can just say, "Oh, we're at the HQ using the computers, playing Dota or something.

Pun intended.

& all the time while me & Fiona were laughing, Gabby & Howard had the "-.-" faces on them.

& I just realised that Faris's brother actually in a way, owns the 3 HQs.
How cool can it get, huh.

What's more, Faris was at HQ1 when we were all at Parklane, & he was at HQ2 when we were there, too.

& yet we didn't see each other -.-

Talk about coincidence!

Howard left his stuffs with me, & I really wonder how he's going to survive tomorrow without them, hahaha.

Ahhhh whatever happened today, makes me feel so, shy!

Electricity surging through my body, & then something hit me.
That very instant moment I knew, there's no detour.
I can only move on, & along.

I won't sit you down & force a bottle of veritaserum (HAHAHA I think I'm nuts about Harry Potter) down your throat, so that you'll tell me what you've been doing outside, or in a meaner way, behind my back.

Figure of speech.
Not that veritaserum exists in our world, anyway.

To summarise it, you're free to do whatever you think it's right.

That may be so, but it doesn't mean that I don't give a damn about it.
I care, I really do, & I won't hesitate to voice out my thoughts & make a big fuss over you when I think it's too much.

What I'm getting at is that other than each other, we still have our studies, our friends, our lives.
I'll give you your room to breathe, & I'm sure you'll give me mine, too (:
I don't want to be a burden to you, y'know.

Bottomline, I trust that you won't go behind my back & do things that you aren't supposed to.

I have only one request.
Don't break this trust.

& to the people, the onlookers, don't give me your two cents worth of comments, logic, whatever.
Don't even go near the subject of limits, you're nobody to tell me about that.

Why don't you tell me, how close, is too close?

I am going to love like I've never had my heart shattered, & you can't stop me.

Alright, anyway, on a lighter note, I bumped into Zhenhao & BoLang at Khatib on the way home.

Ok random, it was just an attempt to make Fiona laugh, hahaha.

I've come to realise that the world out there isn't really, a very nice place.

If I were to describe it in one word, it'll be, "dangerous."

People getting slashed & getting stabbed, over trivial matters?
One wrong word, one wrong move, even one wrong look, could cost you... I don't know.

Or maybe I just don't have the courage to think, or say about it.
Nowadays when I'm all alone & it pops up in my mind, I am afraid.

Afraid of what, you ask.

I am afraid of losing you.

Please promise that you'll take good care of yourself, because if anything happens to you,

I really don't know what I'm going to do.

That very moment you put your arms around me, was the moment I decided that that's where I'm going to stay.

You know I'll be waiting.

Today was no doubt the best fight I've ever put up in my entire life, but it's also the most exhausting one /:

I'm totally wiped out.
My bed is already calling my name.

But I promise I kicked ass, Fiona & Howard would definitely be proud of me.

But anyway, I am rather glad that this thing is over now.
I jolly well kicked your ass & brought you down, whatever you said that you'll do, you make sure you get it done.

See, that's what you get when you mess with my loved one.

I kicked your ass once, I could & wouldn't mind to do it a second time.

Anyhow, I was so hyper after everything I totally forgot about the pain, hahaha.
Bumped into Kieran & Leandra at Outram & went down to TBP together with them.

& haha today I did something that I'd never do in the past, even if you threaten to throw me off a cliff.

I was contemplating on whether to get a haircut, & Kieran in a way, dared me to go snip off my "tail" & fringe.

I don't know what the heck went wrong in me, I went ahead with it.
I promise Kieran & Leandra's jaw dropped to the floor when I said "ok" so readily, hahaha.

But my hair is rather short now, I think I'll need a million years to get used to it /:

Oh good Lord, I can't take it anymore, the temptation to just jump into my bed & sleep, is so overwhelming.

Everything happened so, so quickly.

I really don't know what I am going to do without you, but for you, just for you, I'd hang in there & fight untill the very end.

I don't know what the outcome will be, but I'm sure that every punch that I throw out, & every single blow that hits me, it'll all be worth it.

You're always the one shielding me, keeping me out of harm's way, & I've never really done anything for you, but now, give me one chance to thrash it out for you.
It is the very least that I can do.

I know you've got tons of nonsense going on in your life now, & please don't worry about letting me down, because I understand, I really understand (:

& I don't care if I get myself bruised all over, because I'll have you to plaster/bandage me up (:

Know, that Stacy's not about to let you down.

HAHAHAHAHA Josephine really makes my day & will never fail to make me laugh.

So we were out today together with Ms Shirley, supposed to do some sketching at Botanical Gardens, but the damned rain totally destroyed our plans [insert 200 words to describe how upset I was.]

Ended up in Orchard instead (haha), & !#$#*&^%?!$@ the rain stopped once we were in Orchard [insert another 200 words to describe how upset I was!]

Tell me what can be more fustrating than that.

Decided to go to Wheelock Place for dinner, but somehow, I don't know how, we landed ourselves in Borders.

& HAHAHAHA THIS IS WHERE THE FUN COMES IN.

So we were randomly browsing through some books in the bookstore, suddenly Ms Shirley,

Ms Shirley: Do you know why Moses was in the desert for 40 days?
-Silence-
Ms Shirley: Because he didn't ask for directions.

I promise, we went: -.- !!!!!!

& then,

Ms Shirley: Josephine, do you know who is Moses?
Josephine: Oh, I know, it's the grass!

At that very instant moment, Ms Shirley, Meiqi, Fiona & I were stunned for 2 seconds, then we started laughing like, I don't know what.

I mean, GRASS?!

Like hahaha since when was Moses a plant, huh.
Well, apparently our dearest Josephine mistook Moses for, MOSS -.-

& what's more,

Ms Shirley: Would you rather go to bed with the older James Bond, or the younger one?

Meiqi, Fiona & I, all kept quiet.

Josephine: OF COURSE THE YOUNGER ONE!
Ms Shirley: Why? I think the older James Bond is more charming.
Josephine: Because he's, err, younger.

We went ROFLMAO.

& right after that, just when you thought things couldn't get any worst,

Josephine: But wait, who's James Bond?

She says she'll rather have sex with the younger James Bond, but she doesn't even know who the hell James Bond is?!

OH MY LALA I LAUGHED SO HARD, I THINK I HAVE ABS NOW.

Has Sakae's for dinner, & we were totally laughing about it all over again, & I'm really thankful that I didn't choke on my salmon while laughing.

Pictures will be up, soon, after I get them from Meiqi (:

Oh good Lord, I think I'll be laughing myself to sleep, tonight.

It's 3.46 am now & I have not one bit of idea what the hell I am doing here.

My guess is you, you're keeping me awake.

& you know, everytime I think of you, I miss you even more.

People fall in love, but I crashed into it.

Stay up till 4 in the morning, & the tears are pouring

& I want to make it worth the fight

What have we been doing for all this time?

Baby, if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Random conversation between me & Tabbi at Macdonald's today.

Tabbi: You know that Howard & Rachel that you always mention in your blog?
Me: Uhhuh, what about them?
Tabbi: Are they together?

With that sentence, I literally went ROFLMAO.

Oh-kaaaaay nevermind about that.

Met Fiona, Gabriel, Howard, Zhenhao & some-guy-that-I-don't-know at Parklane.
(Even though I lost to Fiona in pool & the day started off real badly) I had truckloads of fun, I promise.
Just our "anyhow" & "lucky" shots, it was enough to make Fiona & I laugh like there's no tomorrow.

Not forgetting the 10 cent, the funny machine & the toilet papers.

Talk about cheap thrill.

Gabriel kept insisting that it's ok to light up a stick in the shopping centre, smartass Zhenhao followed suit, in the end they got chased out by the security guard, HAHAHA.

On the bus back home Gabriel FINALLY made his move, ask Fiona, she knows best, trust me (:

& Howard was really adorable, as always (:

I want you to know that I'd be here, but would you be here, too?

Omg it's 21st July already.

ALLLLLL HAIL HARRY POTTER & THE DEATHLY HALLOWS!

If you take the first step, I'll follow suit.

oh blimey says:
if the guys are really from mars and if the ladies are really from venus
oh blimey says:
then honestly i think
oh blimey says:
that you are a lady from mars

How interesting.

Should I give it a try, or just let this chance pass me by?

It sucks to be caught in such dilemma, I promise.

But ever since you barged into my life, everything's changed.
I don't think I should sacrifice the friendship & make a mistake that I did before, but sometimes it feels really nice to break the rules...

......

Oh my goodness Stacy don't hesitate to bang your head against a tree, please think of the consequences you idiot, you obviously haven't learnt your lesson the other time round.

Caught Harry Potter today, & honestly, it was quite a disappointment.
Expected it to be quite good, but screw those people for cutting off so many parts from the book.

Had ice cream for dinner. Heh heh heh.

What a dinner, but anyhoooo, thank you korkor for the birthday treat :D

& I PROMISE I AM NEVER GOING TO TAKE 195 FROM CITY HALL BACK TO COMMONWEALTH EVER AGAIN.

Don't you just love rubbing salt in my wounds & making me feel inferior about myself.

Does it gives you an adrenaline rush or does it provide you with a sense of achievement to see me here all alone, in my defeat?

Time after time, I let you hurt me & let myself go through that unecessary pain.

But things are going to be different from now onwards.
I'm done with the tears, & I'm over it.
I am not going to let you have your way anymore, I've given you way too many chances.

I started off with nothing, & I have absolutely nothing to lose.
When I say I don't care, I mean, I don't care.

Every single world that you've hurled at me, I am going to shove them back, straight in your face.

Because you never knew what I am made of.
I am never going to let you, or your words, affect me.

Ever again.

Thank y'all for the pretty little gifts & the birthday wishes, you people were really really sweet, I promise.

Let's sing the birthday song, & blow out the candles together.

Hello Stacy, Happy birthday to you.

& I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two,

"I'm fine baby, how are you?"

I would send them but I know that it's just not enough

My words were cold & flat,

& you deserve more, than that

I just realised that I'll turn fifteen in another 2 hours & 35 minutes.
Which means that today is my last day of being, fourteen.

The fact that my birthday falls on a Monday, doesn't make it any better.

With every year, comes added responsibility & tasks, & they all say that nothing's too tough for me, but I know there is, this something.

& that's leaving you.

I guess you could say that I've become used to having you around, & now that you're not here, it seems like a part of me is missing.

Don't worry, I won't let the tears flow, & let this feeling linger, past 12.

I. Am. So. Tired.

Dragged myself out of the bed at 545, just because of Ethan & Evan, those 2 jokers, suggested going running at 7 in the morning.

I repeat, 7 in the $*&%*!%^*%@ morning!

Anyhow, who on earth would have the mood to run at that unearthly hour.
Not me, at the very least.
3 km & I was done /:

Ended up playing fetch with Rover, Ethan's super playful 2 year old Golden Retriever, who won't stop jumping on me whenever he has the chance to do so.

But other than that, he's really adorable (:

Came home, rushed like I-don't-know-what, & was late for musician practice, thanks to some people, who pissed me off at the wrong time.

tie a ribbon in her hair says:
i wonder why he named his dog rover
tie a ribbon in her hair says:
maybe in the first place he wanted to get a car but made a mistake and got a golden retriever

HAHAHAHAHA KIERAN YOU IDIOT.

One fine day, I am going to make Howard eat my shoe.

I just realised that today is Friday the 13th.
Not that I believe in it anyway, but everyone else is making a big fuss over it /:

Caught Transformers yesterday, & I must say that it's pretty good, except for the fact that the movie lasted like, 2 & a 1/2 hours?
I thought my ass was going to rot, I promise.

& yayyyy, all hail Harry Potter! :D

Go ahead & try to solve the mystery with your dubious methods.
But if you don't like whatever you find out, then it's your problem.

Not mine.

I'm all ready now, & I'm going to knock your lights out.

My advice?
Watch your back.

You don't have an idea, so see for yourself what I can do.

You underestimated me.

Jethro & I were ranting on about the botak referee, who gives out yellow cards & freekicks like it's free.

After hearing what he said, & I don't mean to be mean, but I think,

THE REFEREE REALLY REALLY REALLY SUCK.

& haha, Jethro was actually sitting just a few metres away from where I was sitting & yet I didn't see him.

Stacy I seriously think your eyes are on your ass.

Steven Siah Wei Liang, I would appreciate it if you would just shut your mouth.
I've taken a step back, & you wouldn't want me to kick up a storm over such trivial stuff.

I've done it once, twice, & a third time wouldn't kill.

Don't just sit there in your chair & type on the keyboard, thinking that we would give a poop.
At the most we'd just brush our shoulders & shrug it off, that's all.
& what you're doing, is just exactly what I call, "All talk & no action".

Like I've said, if you're itching to beat us up, you jolly well come to us & say it straight to our faces, instead of pointing the arrow in our way, pushing all the blame to us, & trying to get us on our nerves so that we would take the initiative.

"Ladies first" does not apply here.
Whatever the world says about it, can go burn in hell.

& in the very first place, this matter had absolutely nothing to do with you.

Go ahead, try to smell fear in me.
But I'll tell you what, Stacy would sell her ass if you ever do.

Think twice before you do, or rather, say anything, because I think that it's better if you know this:

If it's a fight you want, it's a fight you get.

Stacy you clumsy idiot, why do you keep getting hurt nowadays /:

Happy birthday to Marcus & Leanne!

There are times I ask why is this love so flawed.

But I know Him, His love is perfect, & surpasses all.

Tomorrow may never come, but that doesn't mean I have to forget about yesterday.

Stacy has taken about 9 panadols since yesterday.
Weak attempt to try & make the pain go away /:

If the pain still lingers, then it's hello to Mr. Dentist ):

I don't like the dentist!
Dentist = Pain ):

What's more, Mummy says that if it's serious I might have to do a root canal.

!#%$^%*^)%$#^@? !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now you say that I've got no reason to freak out because I know nuts about it?

Yeah, actually I know nuts about it except that fact that it involves the opening of the crown of your tooth & removing the pulp from your root canals.

& from the words, "root canal", my instinct is screaming only one word to me now, "pain".

DO I HAVE A GOOD REASON TO FREAK OUT, NOW?!

$%!%^%$*&(*#%^$(?!$^#!$^@!

Oh gosh Stacy do go bang your head against a tree, you aren't really a brave girl.

Daddy in Heaven please please please please please please make the pain go away ):

Anyhow, I am so amazed that I actually survived this week.
Like who wouldn't be half crazy when you have somebody like Fiona sitting next to you -.-

She is the perfect example, of somebody who's hyperactive.

Met Fiona, Rachel & Howard today.
As usual, Howard took a 7846253856 years.

TELL ME WHY IS IT ALWAYS US LADIES WAITING FOR THAT GUY?!

I really want to punch you straight in the face.

Maybe this is how it's supposed to be.

When somebody breaks your heart & tears you apart, you learn something new about them that you never knew.
You take a step back, & look at the person from another angle.

Perhaps the more you are attached to the person, the more it'll hurt.
& the more the person means to you, the more he/she knows how to hurt you.

Passed by NTPS yesterday.
Realised just how much I had missed all my friends back there.

Could we all go back to those times, when we didn't have to worry about anything?

Anyhow, happy birthday to Lynette & Ryan :D

& so I've decided to give this another go.