It's not supposed to hurt this way

Goodbye to the holidays, to waking up at 2pm in the afternoon, to CSI in the middle of the night, to impromtu sleepovers at Tabbi's, I'll see you again in 10 months' time & hellllo again, to waking up at 6 am every morning & blue school uniform.

There's so much to adapt to & I don't like it.
I really hate to be pushed out of my comfort zone, but I know that if I want to get to where I want to go I'd have to buck up & put in more effort.

That aside, the food in school is kind of making me digusted, not that it has ever appealed to me but nowadays I don't even feel like taking a step into the canteen, so both Fiona & I end up sitting outside our classroom during recess & listening to my MP3.

I've been feeling so down lately & it really sucks, I hate it when all I feel like doing is sit in a quiet dark corner & just watch the rest of the world go by.
Something just isn't right but I don't know what the hell it is, it's not even supposed to bother me because we're just friends.

I know I cannot ditch my responsibilities, but I really wonder if I'm using escaping as an excuse to run away.
I've been doing this so many times I'm getting sick of it, but then I can't seem to look at this whole matter face to face.

To put it in a sentence: I can't take it.

If only a simple sorry could undo all the hurt & heal every heartbreak, this world would be a much better place to live in.