I press rewind, & remember when

I close my eyes, & I'm with you again

But in the end, I can still feel the pain

Everytime, I hear your name

My head, is saying that love would fit better in someone else's life.
My actions, are constantly shouting out my weaknesses.
My heart, is telling me to do all that I can to fight for what I love.

& I, just wanted the panadol to make them all shut up.

All that has been going on is killing me, I emphasize, IT'S KILLING ME.

The reason why I am not being sensible this time round, is simply because I find that there's no need for me to do so.
Why should I be sensible when nothing is making sense to me?

After I woke up yesterday night, I trashed Gabriel, & I promise I totally lost control.
I blasted at him, & even called him a bastard.
But seriously, does it thrill you guys to see us in pain?
Fiona doesn't deserve this kind of treatment, & I thought that since I couldn't do much about my own situation, I might as well help her get what she needs, to mend her broken heart.

I came home this morning, which was pretty pointless because I knew I didn't feel like cooping myself today.
Went down to Lavender, & it felt nice to be back in a place where I know so well, where I don't have to be afraid of admitting who I am.

& of course, it was fun catching up with best friend, we haven't spoken to each other for so long.
Thank you for listening to me, & if you ever need a listening ear, I'll be here.

I feel like deleting my friendster account, & I really have no mood to blog anymore.