I think I've already realised that I'm not obliged to show my care or concern, I just don't understand how you can be so nonchalent about it. I want to get rid of the awkwardness but damn it I've come to a point where I don't even know how to try. It's bloody pathetic because I know I've never been like this before. I don't like it when I let the pain attack my heart over & over again but yet I don't know how to stop the way I feel.

Some people are just such whores themselves & yet they can still call me a bitch. That night we were all just having fun & perhaps I was dancing a little to close to your boyfriend but what the hell I'm sure you yourself have seen how crowded that dancefloor was, moreover he didn't even tell me he was attached & I don't suppose that's my fault. In the first place this whole thing had absolutely nothing to do with me, so please stop using me as an excuse & putting the blame on me when things are going wrong for the both of you.

I'm so upset at the world.